The closet softie:

I call myself a closet softie for 2 reasons:

1. I?ve devoted my existence to building a solid facade of strength to keep out malicious intruders from abusing my sympathy, and

2. because I feel a lot more about things than i let on.

Someone once told me that being smart is a curse. I reflect on that and, despite my childhood pride of my parents calling me smart, i realize now that it?s quite true. The more perceptive a person is, the more he/she understands what?s really happening. And most of what?s happening in reality will either break a person?s idealism or force him/her to keep the belief in anything good inside a protective shell within his/her soul.

I do my best to keep my idealism intact? or should i say, what?s left of it after years of experiencing the sublime goodness in people and the horrible opposite.