The Just-A-Bit-Angry Post: Forgiveness

The issue for the day is forgiveness. How easily we forgive sometimes depends on how deep the transgression has hurt us. Some wounds, though patched, may never really heal. Someone much wiser and stronger than I am said the following lines, please read:

• Some people would readily dismiss this argument saying it?s not healthy to be bitter and keep grudges so might as well forgive. But do we really help ourselves and the other person when we so carelessly forgive? When a person offends you repeatedly, and you in turn, forgive generously, you actually get anesthetized. I feel that every time I forgive I lose a little of that uprightness I was born with. I find that every time this happens I try to convince myself that I can bend what is right and fight off the urge to get angry and lash out.

• After a while it actually changes your view of the world. That it?s really not all that peachy and there are more than a few rotten apples you have got to weed out. And you argue, its okay since its better to forgive right? But is it really? Are you better off with that boxed view of what is right, what should be and what shouldn?t be? There is a limit to when you can forgive.

Yes, there’s a limit. And I have reached mine. Not everyone knows about the small accident I had with a guy who was so bent on self pity that he tried to endanger my life just because he wanted to lash out. A small accident that almost resulted in a fatal one. Mine.

Can anyone readily forgive someone who held a gun to his or her head and pulled the trigger (but somehow the gun got jammed and didn’t go off)? That wasn’t exactly what happened, but you get the idea. As long as no one reminds me, I can forget. But I do not know if I am capable of forgiving.

This reminds me of a text message I received some time in the past. It’s about two wolves ripping out each other’s throats inside every person. One’s name is Love and Forgiveness (LF), and the other one’s Hate and Bitterness (HB). I will spend my whole life feeding LF with steak upon juicy steak of nourishing love, and to the other one, HB, I will give just one bone that he can chew on forever.

This is the bone that I give the angry wolf. I will never forget how someone endangered my life because I cannot be with him as a girlfriend.